No, not that way! I was diagnosed as having bi-polar disorder this week, by a doctor I have been seeing in my struggle with depression. Depression runs in the family: the curse. I have fought it all my life. I have tried so many ways of coping with it, and creating is one of my few tried and true ways of really fighting it and feeling "normal".
However, I can't help but feel embarrassed and a bit branded by this diagnosis. I realize I didn't do anything to "get" it, but there is such a rough social stigma associated with the whole thing. And then I wondered if this was even the forum to talk about it, since I intended this spot for my creative work and explorations. But I realized many creative people and artists are bi-polar.
I am working to learn what can indicate I am going into a bad time and things that can stress or make it more likely to happen. Not everything is avoidable; for instance, stress can trigger problems. How do you keep all stress out of your life?
One thing I am determined to do is find more time for creativity. I always struggle with the feeling that anything in that realm is frivolous and an indulgence, which can only be dipped into when EVERYTHING else is done. And I mean everything, down to dusting baseboards and organizing books by author. How anal is that? However, the more I think things over, the more I realize that crafting is as much or more therapy for me, than most anything else.
As to my knitting, it has been a bit on hold, while I got the house cleaned for company from Sweden. That company leaves on Tuesday, so I am hoping for more "my" time for the remainder of the week. I am also hoping to get some little embroidery projects to take on our trip to Hawaii in August. Something easy to do, which will be relaxing with minimal "stuff" to carry with me.
I hope to post some new pictures soon of peg dolls I have been working on.